The Good, the bad and the not so pretty

As i sit here to write this, i look back every now and then, just to reassure myself that i am safe. Im like a little fish swimming in the midst of hungry sharks, yet i dare to swim across. It has been on my mind for quite sometime to come and sit in the beach on a sunny day and behold nature in all her glory and beauty. Sadly, that isnt the case as it is raining crocodiles and hippos, alot of bad boys around and those merchants of familiar spirits conducting "deliverance".

Enough about my environment :) lemme go back what i am doing here. I seek that which i do not understand. Today, i am meant to be in front of an HR representative, telling them why i need their freight job so badly but it isnt so. What we want, isnt always what we get or is it? I try to force a laugh every now and then but the sound of  my heart's cry, brings me back to reality.

I ask! what did i even come to the world for? The thought of the ones i love , once again,gives me something to smile about. Jah be praised for that! Love, career and spirituality, happen to be the very issues that brings me T̶̲̥̅Ơ̴͡ my knees. Then i ask myself what if i had all my heart's desire, will it make me happier? For some reason, i cant answer the questions i ask.

My heart is racing and making waves with so much current just like lagos Bar beach. There is so much to write about but i dont seem to know where to start but never the less, i just have to say it "the way it is doing me"